Porn addiction aside, the one thing that sucks the most is relapsing. In my years of living with an addiction to internet porn, I’ve made the decision to quit more times than I choose to remember.
I vividly remember the first time I relapsed after my longest streak without porn or masturbation. At that time, it was such a challenge to even go 1 week without getting on my favorite site. This time, I had managed 2 full months.
I relapsed on Day 92.
After that relapse I felt three main things:
1) Disbelief and Confusion: “How did this happen?” “I was doing so well!”.
3) Less confidence in myself. I basically looked at my self as someone who couldn’t be trusted to keep his word.
If you’re reading this, there’s a good chance that you can relate quite well to all three emotions.
I’d like you to do something for yourself for a moment, though…
Think back to your last relapse- specifically, the week BEFORE your relapse.
Now honestly answer these questions:
Did you have a recovery plan?
Did you have boundaries or actions to take if you were triggered? …